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Today I proudly stand at 6’1 and 324 pounds, huge forehead, size 15 shoe. I mentioned my measurements because not too long ago I was embarrassed to mention them. You know all of the “big” references that I endured since I was younger took a toll on me. I would go into shoe stores and ask for my size and I would get the wide eye looks and the laughter. In some cases, some of the salespeople would say that the shoes looked like clown shoes. I remember when my feet first grew, I was in high school, I hadn’t fully developed. I stood about 5’6, with a size 15 shoe. Whenever I walked into the school’s cafeteria, it would get quiet, there would be whispers, then a huge amount of laughter would be heard as I quickly exited the lunchroom. I would get teased saying that my shoe was the shoemaker’s final shoe before they died. At the time it was absolutely terrifying. Imagine coming to school late so that you wouldn’t be teased about something that you can’t help. I recall some children would tell me that I dropped something and I would look and they would say you dropped your Snicker’s bar.
They found it to be hilarious, to this day, I don’t get the joke. I would constantly get the “you need to lose weight” comments. It was assumed that I would sneak in lunch bags and eat other’s food. Not Cool. There was always an assumption that I could not run because of my size. There was always an assumption that I couldn’t be active in sports. I started to think that something was wrong with me.
I remember going to amusement parks, while on the line I would wonder if I could fit in the ride. So one day we went to an amusement park and I was excited. There was a rollercoaster that I wanted to ride. I stood online and waited to get the very first seat so that I could get the full effect of the roller coaster. I was excited, I got to the front and adjusted myself so that I could “fit.” I didn’t. The locking device wouldn’t close and I had to get off of the ride. All I could do was look at the floor as I walked away from the roller coaster.
I have a preference towards curvy women, so when some of my “associates” would see me and hold on to the car or something solid acting as if we caused an earthquake when we walked by. I would even hear comments such as “I can’t imagine two people fxckin.” The comments that were made affected my confidence. And it even made me second guess my preference in women at times. You would never see me in a pool or on the beach with my shirt off. Even when it was time for the gym in high school, I would be the last one to change into my clothes. I didn’t realize how much these instances affected me until recent years.
But, now I have come to the conclusion that I choose myself before the thoughts and opinions of others. No, my body isn’t built up to “society’s standards,” but I no longer care. I am going to set my own standards for my body. We all are unique and wonderfully made. I am now recognizing my uniqueness as should you! I went out on a limb on this post (No, I didn’t go “Safaree” for the likes.) but my aim is to inspire people who have gone through similar or worse experiences.
I want to thank you for reading this post. To this day this had to be one of my most personal posts. I feel exposed and vulnerable, but also very liberated. I am in a space where I appreciate me; every imperfection, every blemish, every flaw, every attribute! I want to encourage you to do the same. Learn to appreciate you and accept your individuality, because “comparison is the thief of joy.”
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